Well, NYS says you CAN NOT exist on your own with no money. I haven't worked in three years (Was taking care of my ailing father as well as how do you get a job when you use crazy glue to build half of your front tooth?)
So they said I have to provide someone elses' income and call it my own. My ex boyfriend is helping me...he makes all of 13 dollars an hour. From that he has to pay 60 a week in child support, 1,000 a month rent, 300 monthly in electric, there are 4,000 dollar credit card bills...the list goes on and on. Oh, and needless to say, we can't even afford to buy food. But, NYS says that's 400 MORE a month than is necessary to qualify for medicaid. (2 people must make LESS than 2,200 a month BEFORE taxes, regardless of expenses!)
I live downstate, it's not even possible to live, as one person, on that salary.
One of my teeth finally did it. (I told you I feared the pain and no, no one stepped up to aid in the way necessary, providing actual MONEY to go to the doctor and get this stuff taken care of...) One of my molars (one of two left to the top of my mouth) decided it didn't want to let me live anymore. I spent three days screaming at the top of my lungs. Finally, took the money for rent and wen to a dentist. for 200 he root canalled said tooth. He told me I had the most deplorable teeth he'd ever seen. He said if I didn't get many root canals and special extractions, as well as a very good bridge piece, inside of a year I wouldn't have a tooth in my head.
I'm not an old woman. I just posted my picture because...well, I'm not ugly. I'm actually beautiful. I should be able to get ahead, shoot, get ANYWHERE, in life...but my teeth...when I open my mouth, people cringe. They think I'm a meth addict or crack-head or something. It's worse when you're attractive, honestly. People are so pleased at your face, your body, they seem to get angry at the juxtaposition of the rot in my mouth. I have 6 more teeth, which any day, can start that screaming agony again. That which feels as though someone's driving an awl into my head. I have no money to even root canal these things, which would leave me with dead and broken stumps all over my face any way...I just cry.
I don't understand, honestly, how there are people with money and yet...oh..they let someone, such as myself, suffer, every day. I can have no life because of this. Quite honestly? My body was so traumatized by the pain of the last tooth that I trembled for three days...even a whole day AFTER the pain was gone. It's INHUMANE. I deserve so much better and I can't even find a job because of this! Alas, at this point, should I get insurance, it wouldn't touch but one of my teeth. I need special surgery to remove the many root canalled remnants, I need root canals and posts and crowns for 6 other teeth and I need a decent mouth bridge to fill all the rest of the holes. (Implants are dreams at 5,000 a piece.)
All told? I think I need about 15,000 to get anywhere near okay. I don't know why I bother posting this here, lol. (not really laughing) Just I always get emails saying I have some response or another to my posts.
They've not one actually been helpful. Doesn't any philanthropic person read these pages? Does no one wanna keep me FROM WANTING TO DIE....SCREAMING TO DIE?! Cus, truly, I'd give so much to be able to smile and know I wasn't horrifying the recipient.
